Ok now that I said that I can tell you a secret…
I HATE THE HOLIDAYS!
It has been such a lonely time for me that I have zero good things to say about it. I am hoping this will pass.
I have a two year old. Christmas needs to be magical for him. This is the first year I put out “Santa” presents for him, though I don’t think he will notice. But then all I had to do was go on Facebook and see that I did the bare minimum. We don’t have an elf on the shelf. I didn’t leave cookies and milk out for Santa and carrots for his reindeer. We do not have a lot of money so he is not overloaded with gifts. The Christmas money he got I put into his savings account. I mean he is happy playing with boxes so why blow the $200 on a toy he will like for a few months. I want to make sure he can go to college.
I’m glad I have a family. I couldn’t ask for two more amazing guys in my life!
On another positive note, I did go to a Christmas Eve women’s meeting and it was beautiful. It reminded me that there are other people who feel the exact same way that I do. It reminded me that I am not alone. One woman gave us gifts. They were messages from the big book. Mine was perfect for me at this point in my life.
It blows my mind how lucky I am to be getting sober in the DC metro area. There are TONS of meetings. And I mean TONS. I can pretty much find one anytime of day within a 30 minute drive. They even have meetings that you can bring your kids to! For this I am blessed.