There is time and time again I need to remember that I can only control what I do. Though times are a little tough in my marriage and balancing life new in sobriety, I can only control my actions and behaviors. So many days I have felt like curling up into a ball and jumping under the covers and not getting out for a few days. But I haven’t. I won’t.
So I am taking baby steps. I signed up for school next semester. I am going to start tutoring math part time in Januray. I ordered a study guide for the nursing school entrance exam. I took it before and got in the 97%. Hopefully I can do it again. I am going to meetings, working with my sponsor and reading what I need to. Taking these small steps has made me feel so much better. I feel like things are going to be okay regardless of the outcome. In the mean time, I must keep moving forward. People will say what they want and do what they please. I have no control in that. I can show people that I am on the right path. I may stumble, but I will get back up.
One of my issues with alcoholism is that I have never been able to accomplish many of my goals. I think it’s time to set some and work for it.
1. Get accepted into Nursing school and finishing it.
2. Have another baby.
3. Run a marathon.
4. Have a happy marriage.
5. Most important- Stay Sober