Having spent so many many years drinking and wasting my life away, it is time for changes. One of the changes I have decided to add on my journey to freedom is to get out of my comfort zone and try new things. Change requires a lot of getting out of your comfort zone. I am use to getting drunk, being hungover and isolating. Now I have to branch out and try new things, by myself. This will in turn help me adjust to my new life. It will also teach me how to deal with change.
Tonight was one of those nights.
I tried aerial yoga. I went alone. And I was incredibly nervous. But when I got there, the staff was incredibly friendly and the instructor even worked with me before the class started. Now in my head I had this image that I was going to jump into that hammock and look like a member of Cirque du Soleil. This was not the case. It was a lot of fun and hard work. It was a great upper body and core workout. The class was very small, and we all were able to laugh at ourselves. It was amazing.
This may not seem like a big deal to many. And it really isn’t. It is a start to a new way of life. A new way of thinking. I am blessed that I was able to enjoy such a fun experience.
Last night was tough. Really tough. I have been sober a few New Year’s Eves before. One I was pregnant and the other two I was so hungover from drinking the night before that I was asleep by around 8. I wanted to drink so badly. As I looked at Facebook and Instagram, all I could see was endless pictures of champagne or people drinking. I finally put my phone away. My husband was aware of my severe discomfort. I was able to communicate to him how badly I wanted to drink. He was super supportive. He never left my side. To that I am so grateful. Though I was not awake at midnight, I made it through New Year’s sober.
I fell asleep at 11:30…party pooper! I would rather be the party pooper now than what I was before. And today, I get to spend a lovely day with my family at the Natural History Museum. I am blessed!
So tonight as I was flossing and brushing my teeth, it struck me that I am a regular flosser for the first time in my entire life. Being an alcoholic, so many things got put off for so long during my drinking. I went to the dentist for the first time in over ten years. It wasn’t pretty and I had to have deep cleaning done. But in that month since, I have flossed every night. I haven’t even really had to think about it.
I am learning to take care of myself again. By doing so, I believe my self confidence is growing. And through that, I am learning to love myself again. I have hated me for so long. I can look at myself in the mirror and not think horrible things. This is amazing. This is change. I am blessed.
I just bought tickets for my husband and I to go see Dropkick Murphys tomorrow night. This is normal for him not for me. I am not a punk kind of girl at all. I can’t wait to see what this night has in store for us. I will update on Tuesday on how it went!
Update. That could have been by far the most fun I have ever had at a concert! The Dropkick Murphys are full of energy and just want everyone to have a good time. I am so happy I went. My husband was over the moon that we got the tickets to the sold out event. There was a little bit of a bother at the show. The show was at the 9:30 Club in Washington DC. We were upstairs on the balcony which has three tiers of seat/standing. The place is general admission. My husband and I staked out our spot and waited. Two older couples came about 20 minutes after and stood right in front of us. There is only one row of people per tier, but these women decided to stand a foot in front of my husband and I. They did not let me and my husband have a bad time. We kept dancing and having fun!
I am making a huge effort this year to make some changes. I am doing pretty well on lifestyle changes. I am now exercising at least 4 days a week and eating much better. My energy levels are getting much higher which is fantastic. I am also trying to be more social. I had a habit of getting pretty lazy, but I am loving meeting new people. Between my mom’s group and running groups, I am feeling much more fulfilled. This is finally giving me somethings I needed, especially me time. Being a mother, your needs tend to get lost. It’s amazing that it takes a lot of effort to make sure you are taken care of too. So any mother’s out there, make sure you take care of yourself, not just by exercise, sleep and nutrition. Make sure you get time to yourself or to do what you want. At least one hour a week, make sure you are number one. Everyone will be happier in the long run!
Since norovirus 2013 has come to an end, life seems to be going a million miles per hour. Besides taking care of my super sweet Aiden and going to school, I have joined two running groups. One group is for moms and the other for anyone. I am working on being the happiest I can be. Being healthier gives leads to more happiness. The more I work out, the more energy I have. The more energy I have, the more energy I have to spend with my family. Time with my family makes me so happy. I love life right now, and I hope anyone reading this feels the same!